I even taught a Sunday School class and played the church game well; but, I did not have Christ Jesus in my heart. Only after going through the hell of divorce, losing my family, friends, wealth, job, and self respect did I consider ending it all. I hurt so many people and especially the ones that I loved the most. I had become the "scum of the earth," and in my mind I was a condemned man.

Two (2) wonderful Christians from the Lee Highway Church of God in Chattanooga invited me to a Bible study at their home in which Jesus came into my heart and I felt His wonderful love for me through them. I was not rejected; but, was prayed for deliverance from the compulsion of sexual sin. Tommy Goetz, Thomas Campbell, Judy Henry, and Betty Kirkby at Kay Arthur's, Precept Ministries was very helpful too in providing me with the spiritual and material support in a very difficult time in my life. It is now through Him and His Word that I get my strength and will to serve Him in any way He sees fit. I went to a Christ centered support group for homosexual men who were in the recovery process at the Lee Highway Church of God. Although I was not strickly a homosexual; but, had sexual feelings for both male and female, I really did not feel I was a bisexual either—since I was not interested in loving relationships with the same sex—only in engaging in the sexual act. In any event I knew that I was a sexually immoral person; and, I knew that recovery was possible only through Him, Christ Jesus.

My compulsion for sex regardless of whether it was male or female was beyond my ability to quit on my own strength, and only through the power of His words, love, grace, and forgiveness have I been able to recover. I am continuously relying on Him every minute of the day to carry my burdens as I cannot do it myself. He has brought so much peace and love to my life now. The shame is gone. I am in total dependence on Him. All things are possible through Him and I know that He will never, never, never, never...forsake me. I have known no love like His. God brought into my life a wonderful Christian lady who has been very supportive to me in His ministry for the sexually immoral--a person that I can be totally honest with in sharing my thoughts. We have been married five years now.

I don't like to "preach" to anyone; but, I do enjoy sharing my testimony with people who are in sexual sin—especially to sex offenders, and those who have been broken, feeling despair, rejected, and the "scum of the earth." I know their walk and I rejoice in every opportunity the Lord gives me to share with them about what He has done for me. He loves all sinners. There is no "hopeless situation" except for dying unsaved.